"Whispering the sound of silence..."

If you don't like it, then get the hell off my journal. Thanks much.

Twelve year fan and still going strong. Because they're just that great.

I finished this video about two hours ago. I must say, though it is not my best, it still makes me all excited to see it. This rpg story plot has been one we've been working up to for... oh, I'd say well over a year, first mentioned here. Zeke is "this boy {from} a couple days ago" Melinda refers to. And look how far they've come from that first day!



To explain it a little, the two met in Magic School. They dated, fell in love, then he went bi-polar (because of his darklighter side) and shot a crapload of people at their graduation. They continued to see each other in secret, overcoming obstacles that stood in their way. When Melinda and her cousins are swept off to Avalon to reclaim the powers they'd lost, Zeke followed. The two snuck off together, he proposed out of spur of the moment, and she accepted happily.

The wedding takes place in the summer months following the journey to Avalon.

Like I said, a year of planning. Isn't it great when you reach that stage with your characters? I'm feeling incredibly nostalgic at the moment. Now I need to go and watch all the videos my other mod made for the couple (I have Zeke, and she has Melinda).

Wow. There's this new song I've never heard, and I found on a "Messenegers" video. I really liked that song, so I've been listening to it a lot. So today, I decided to download it, but I needed the artist of the song first.

You can imagine my shock when I found out just who sings it. I absolutely cannot stand the Jonas Brothers. Really, and I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks about them. They're a bunch of cocky little boys who are trying to be Hanson.

And seriously? If you don't like Hanson, feel free to keep it to yourself, cause I do. For about 12 years.

I usually have a lot of respect for any and all artists, even if their music blows. But those little Jonas Brothers really just rub me the wrong way. I don't think Taylor Swift would disagree with me. I was pretty amused when she dissed one of them with a barbie.

I can't believe such an awesome song came from such a douchebag band. The feeling of shock is very similar to the day I realized I still liked a lot of Britney songs.

I just watched 'Australia' and I have to say, it was AMAZING. I seriously didn't think it would be all that great, but I was incredibly wrong. It has to seriously be one of my favorite movies of all time, right up there with 'Air Force One' and 'The Shawshank Redemption' and 'Dogma.'



I watched 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button' yesterday. It was all right, but I thought it dragged just a bit. They should have moved things along with it a little quicker. Though, it was interesting story, I'll give it that.

I got my interview with the LCB done and over with. It only took a few minutes, and I'm supposed to hear from them in another day or two! YES! I'm told that my pal who wants me to run his bar, he's buddy buddy with them and since the LCB just went through with my dad and his bar, my pal reckons mine will pass with flying colors. Huzzah!

Does anyone remember this film?


I have my niece again and she finally fell asleep, so I went OnDemand to look for something to watch. I was going for 'Jerry Maguire,' but when I saw 'Dutch' I absolutely couldn't pass it up. I haven't seen that for what, 10 years? And it's still just as hilarious now as it was then.

Oh and of course, here's a few more awesome 90s movies. Talk about a blast from the past. Some of my favorite films as a kid.




And this last one, I believe I watched it about two weeks ago. It's still one of my favorites.

Every year, same time, I get ambushed by the allergy monster. Started about 3 or 4 days ago this time. GAH. Fucking chest issues are awful. I think I should give some serious consideration to putting down the cigarettes, if only until this passes. Then again, I have no will power when it comes to nicotine. I've been so tired, sleeping a hell of a lot more. I haven't been able to properly function past midnight. Though, on a positive note, I've been sleeping through the night every night.

I've somehow become the live-in nanny for my brother's kids. Seriously, I love them to death, but having them EVERYDAY is starting to grate my nerves. Just yesterday, Emma threw a massive hissy fit and I had to put her in her bedroom. She screamed for about 30 minutes solid. Terrible twos my ass. More like horrific. That's what I woke up to that morning too. She was freaking out over a balloon, and I come to at the sound of a child wailing. I remember thinking, "Jesus Christ, is someone trying to stick an ax in her head or something!?" For someone as little and cute as she is, you'd never expect that kind of mouth on her. And today, she brought a little friend over with her, and she made him cry. Then I made her go down and apologize to him. She wasn't happy about it.

And I must see this movie.


It looks hilarious! I've got love for Sandra, and Ryan is quickly becoming one of my faves. I reckon I'm going to use him for a pup.

I just got done watching Xmen Origins, and no, I didn't go to the movies. I downloaded one of the leaked workprint versions. Yeah, I did it, so what.

Even with some of the un-cgi-ed scenes, it's still pretty awesome, no lie. I haven't watched the whole thing yet, just bits and pieces. I had to burn it to a disc first; my step-father demanded it.

Best scene so far:
( Click if you wanted spoiled, don't click if you don't )

It's amusing to see the wires for stunts and the unfinished effects. And still, the movie just plain out rocks.

Last summer was the last time I went out and bought a pair of pants. I believe they were a 26. Right now, I'm wearing a pair of jean shorts that are a size 16. I haven't worn a 16 since I was... well, 16 years old. Yay me! People I haven't seen for about six years have stared at me in shock and exclaimed how much weight I've lost.

My brothers and sister have all been gaining serious weight over the last few months. Maybe they're getting all the weight I'm losing. I've been telling them for years that one day I'd be smaller than all of them. Looks to me like that day isn't too far off now. Haha bastards! How you like me now?

My aunt gave my mom a bunch of old clothes (which is where I got the shorts). I got a pretty little light green dress too. I can't wait to wear it out! I feel like a hottie! Well, granted, I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, but at least I'm not a big orange pumpkin anymore. It's nice to be a shape that's something other than round. And have a jawline and cheekbones. I missed that.

I burned my hand two days ago. My firebug ways have caught up with me once again. It's just a little thing. I was pissing around with some of the fish line that came loose from the sewing in my comforter, so I burned it off. I didn't want to rip it out and fray it more, nor did I have scissors handy. So then I started melting the piece I took off, and a little hot part flew off and landed on my palm. Yeah, melting plastic and skin don't mix, especially as it dries to your skin. Hurts like a motherfucker too; it's right in the center crease.

The 'Chuck' finale was actually more awesome than the 'Heroes' finale, though both were pretty all right. Chuck knows kung-fu! Casey's face was PRICELESS when Chuck suddenly went all ninja on six Fulcrum agents.

I'm finally meeting with the LCB this upcoming week. Which means I'll be working my bar pretty soon. It shall be an awesome night the first time I get to boss other people around and get paid for it.

X-men Origins in 2 days! WOOO!

... is a new video. This one is for a new game that a few friends and I have been planning for the past few weeks. And finally started playing a couple of days ago. It's still in it's building stage, but done enough for the four of us to start writing.

I would just like to say- don't judge me. This video only took a few hours and was done in one sitting. Not my best, but it's still fun to see characters in live motion. And yes, I'm aware that a lot of people use this same song for openings. I happen to like it.

Okay, so first is "United States of Tara."



I mean, come on? What show about D.I.D. (or more commonly known as M.I.D. - multiple personality disorder) wouldn't be interesting to watch? I happen to like Buck the most out of all the alters (cause when he totally kicked Kate's abusive boyfriend's ass, I was up cheering), though T is a close second. Alice just rubs me the wrong way. I kinda wanna drop kick her in the side of her head. Just to muss up those perfect freaking curls. Then again, it was quite amusing to see her shove a handful of nasty restaurant liquid handsoap in Kate's mouth. And Tara's son just kills me. Such a cute, shy little gay kid. I absolutely adore him. And Tara's husband. Poor guy has dealt with Tara and T and Buck and Alice for 17 years, and he still has a sense of humor with the whole thing.

And now for the most recent addition to my new favorites, which I only discovered at about 10 o'clock last night, "Dexter."



I have been waiting YEARS to see a movie or show or just something where the main character was the big bad guy, the villian of the story. And it's finally happened! I couldn't believe I'd gone so long without ever giving this show a glance. Over a year ago, I actually came across one of the writers for the show when I first started working at Verizon. And I thought of that conversation we'd had about the show just last night when I was going through the OnDemand stuff. So I thought "what the hell" and picked out the first episode of the 3rd season (they only have season 3 up) and I fell in love with it immediately. It's intensely intriguing. I have no idea what happened in the first two seasons (other than the "last season on Dexter" bit they did in the beginning of the season 3 premiere), but I can tell you if those seasons were anything like the one I'm watching, then it's most definitely worth the time to catch up on them.

Sylar is definitely gonna have to step up his game if he wants to keep his most awesome villain title over Dexter. For real.

And now that that is out of the way... 5 more days til X-Men: Origins!!



I'm looking forward to seeing Gambit and Emma Frost. And I'm hugely satisfied that the movie makers have finally wised up and given those two X-Men proper places in the films. I was OUTRAGED at all three of the previous films for omitting them. Oh, and can't forget Wraith. He was pretty awesome too. You know who I wish they'd pay more attention to? Jubilee. I know she was in the other films, but a different actress in each one. And tiny bit parts. Hell, her, Wolverine, and Gambit were my favorites on the Saturday cartoon I watched every weekend as a kid. Right after Super Fighting Ninja Turtles.

Some of that stuff was just out there. I can't believe that was 7 years ago already!

Matt Saracen: Why is she staring at him like that?
Landry Clark: You really want me to tell you why she's staring at him like that? Cause I could. You're not gonna wanna hear what I have to say.
Matt Saracen: All right, well, all I'm saying is she's my girlfriend right? So she probably shouldn't be staring off at Swedish people like that.
Landry Clark: Why don't you go over there and punch him in the face?
Matt Saracen: Oh, is that what you would do?
Landry Clark: In some situations, you need to ask yourself "W.W.R.D?" What would Riggins do in this situation? He would walk over to him, punch him in the face, and push him in the pool.
Matt Saracen: Riggins would not be in this situation, 'cause Riggins is captain of the SS Tatas over there.
Landry Clarke: And he's probably slept with literally like half of the girls at Dillion High, not to mention some of their moms and sisters...
- Episode 201: "Last Days of Summer"

God, I love this episode.

Day-Day and his girlfriend came over tonight with their baby. She's gotten so big since I last saw her! He was tossing her in the air and she was laughing like a little banshee!

I'm going painting all day tomorrow. My dad wants to use the rest of his paint for the bar, so we're doing the whole outside in stripes. I think it'll look weird, but that's what he wants to do. It ought to look interesting when it's done.

Okay, that worked out differently than I expected. I got to about hour 40 after I went down and cleaned the kitchen. I don't remember coming back upstairs, but when I woke up again, I was in my bed. I don't even remember putting on the orange M&M shirt. Not to mention, it's 12 freaking hours later. Thank god I didn't have to go anywhere or do anything important today.

So 40 was all the further I got this time. I can't figure out why the hell I must have fell asleep so easily. I was doing fine! Granted, my back felt like it was going to break in several places and going up and down the stairs took a bit more energy than I had, but I was awake enough to have a conversation with my brother when he came over with little Joey this morning. Bah! Now I have to start all over again.

Although, I do believe the episode I left off on was episode 111 "Nevermind."

I wonder just how long I can go without sleep. I tried it a few years ago in college. I made it over 3 days before I gave up and crashed. After the second day, things started to seem a bit surreal. It was awesome. I ended up at breakfast that third day with pigtails, mardi gras beads, a hippie neon colored shaw, a ruffle skirt, and white hightops with pink ribbon laces. I remember watching some rainbow colored Japanese kiddie show on a Sunday morning (the third day). It was like the colors were too loud and coming out of the TV.

I wonder if that's the same effect as taking LSD, only not scary. Not like I'd ever actually try that shit. I'm not all hot about riding the dragon or whatever they call it.

Good lord, I am so wired at the moment. I couldn't sleep if I tried. This paper is a piece of cake. I need a good movie or something to watch in the background. The Zohan just isn't cutting it. Maybe Spaceballs or Little Women. I just can't decide if I want a comedy or a drama. Then again, every time I watch Little Women, it makes me want to start a game based on that era.

I have entirely too much time on my hands lately. This manager gig is taking too damn long to get situated. Why does the LCB like taking it's sweet ass time? I had to do paperwork out the wazzoo.

Oh, and I almost forgot this. Because FNL has quickly become one of my favorite shows, right up there with Charmed, Heroes, Scrubs, and the United States of Tara. And this video seemed pretty damn cool, so I'm sharing it. And no, I didn't make it. Sure I wish I had though.

I had Summer for about five hours yesterday (or this morning, if you really want to be technical), from 8:30 to until 2am. It was the first time since she was born that my brother and his fiance didn't have her with them. And it was me that they trusted with her. I was touched. Well, I would have been if their first solo mission hadn't been off to go drinking. And if they had stuck to just the hour or two they said they'd take instead of five hours. But it was difficult to be mad with such a sweet little bundle of joy in my care. Summer's a month old today. And growing like a freaking beanstalk. She has me and Joe's feet. So cute.

Believe it or not, a Kate Nash song has come along and inspired a lot of my muses back to life. The only bad thing about it is that the majority of my characters are all part of inactive games, aside from my progeny pups and very few others. I feel comfortable enough (with RL bullshit and rp issues) that I actually went and tagged in a bunch of old tags I slacked off on in the past weeks. While it's a little weird getting back into the swing of things, at the same time it's refreshing. I missed my Piper and PJ and Zeke characters.

I working on two new games. One I'm creating and one I'm applying to. It'll be nice to try something new that isn't all witches and magic.

And on a last note, Lily Allen's "Fuck You" as given me a new perspective on a certain issue that has been weighing heavily on me for awhile now. With no answer to anything or certainty on the fate of certain things, "Fuck you very much" seems like the appropriate response. No lie. It truly makes me feel better about the whole thing. Which is a big part of the reason why I've felt the urge to awaken my muses as well. I'm a good writer and a good friend, goddamnit, so I don't really care what some people think anymore.

The last two or three days have been, for a lack of a better term, interesting. I wrote, I watched 'The Day the Earth Stood Still' and 'Yesman' (the first was pretty awesome while the latter had it's funny parts), I learned two new stitches, I slept very little (and am pretty convinced I just caught up on all of it last night and this morning), and I found a new job (that pretty much landed right in my lap).

I never thought the few people I actually know would just hand me a manager job. Not that I'm complaining at all. Just surprised. Maybe because a shitload of other people in my family all run bars. Only figures with the cycle of life here that I run one too. Ironic, don't you think? Dude, I'll be a couple somebodys' boss. How crazy is that?

Well, that's about it. Not much happens in this dull little town.

It doesn't matter what a 3 week old baby does, she's still the sweetest damn thing I've ever seen. I can't get over the whole lip quiver thing when she cries. I love how she's all looking around when you hold her to your chest. She looks a little more like my brother everyday!

I practically had to rip this little plastic back off of Emma's doll today. It was one of those kissy dolls that when you press it's hand, it laughs endlessly. And it needed batteries, so I spent about half an hour trying to get the stripped screw out of it. After that, I just resorted to taking my switchblade and tugging the piece off. It ended up snapping back together nicely once I was done. What ever happened to a freaking jump rope?

I've got about 5 tons of orange yarn now, thanks to my brother's fiance. She crochets and I knit, and she doesn't like orange so now I have like, 8 spools of it. I think I may fashion myself an orange blanket to go with my orange walls.

A few days to myself is exactly what I need. I'm feeling much better stepping out of the whole writing mood for a little bit. It's weird to actually think about other things for a change as opposed to ideas and muses running amok in my head and bent over a notepad. I've recently discovered Jeff Dunham, and I must say, he's fucking hilarious.

( Peanuts and his theory on strip clubs and gay superheroes )

( Achmed the Dead Terrorist )

( Bubba J... there's no words for this one... )

( The new manager, Sweet Daddy D )

( Melvin the superhero )

I've been feeling like shit for some time lately, but ( this actually made me feel a little better just now. )